| two |
[Feb. 14th, 2007|10:45 pm] |
You have no idea what you do to me. I had you and lost you. The few months when we were together were the best of my life. You make me feel beautiful and happy and excited and every single feeling in the world all at once. I can't stop thinking about when I first met you and when I first kissed you. It all seems like it was yesterday. I don't know where to go from here. I'm sick of pretending that I'm okay, because I'm not and I won't ever be. All I have left is memories...
I know you're meant for me.
I just wish I was meant for you.
Love,
Alex |
|
|
| one. |
[Jan. 28th, 2007|08:59 pm] |
So.
I'm sick and my head hurts and Daft Punk has been on repeat for the past half an hour. My day consisted of reality show re-runs and cups of coffee. This all basically means that I spent the whole day doing nothing at all. I did have plenty of time to think about things that needed some acknowledgement, though.
I don't know if I'm ready to move. I know that California is perfect for me. But I'm taking so much for granted here. There are definitely a few faces that I won't be able to say goodbye to. I'm torn on this one.
Also, I miss the comfort of having "someone". Not necessariily a boyfriend, because I'm not sure that's not what I want right now. I just miss having someone that honestly and genuinely cares about me in a "more than friends" way. It just sucks because I'm really scared of getting hurt. I have yet to find a guy who isn't an asshole. Oh well :/ I'm not getting into anything serious though, until I find the PERFECT guy to settle down with.
My grades got fucking good in school. I'm so amped on going to college. As of now, I want my major to be forensic science, but that may change. I'm looking at schools in Southern California. I still have a long way to go, but college is going to be pretty legit.
Okay time to sleep, goodnight all!
Love,
Alex |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
vagueheartwork's journal